shake shake

fail

2010-08-13T02:23:00.001+08:00

by that , i know i can't do long distance

I'm just not

2010-06-26T16:57:00.001+08:00

It's bullshit
All of em
If someone is too good for you,
You would wanna keep that person
If you really like that someone
No matter how good or bad he or she is
You're just gonna give up loads for her
And be with her
If he or she is that good
You would never wanna let go
So no I'm not that good
Nor am I that perfect
It's proven right here
I might look stupid and dumb to u
Lots of thing I know I didn't wanna tell
I have feelings too
So I know

I'm not gonna cry or beg despite how deep my cut is

I couldn't win this one and that's that

I love you
and this would be the last time

Hey you

2010-06-22T21:13:00.001+08:00

I never told you
I never showed you
I don't intend to change anything either
I'm too comfortable with you and I don't wanna lose you.

But deep down inside I know I'm not strong enough to handle it

It's happening all over again

And I'm stupid enough to step right into it

Just imagine how much you mean to me right now

holiday

2010-04-07T03:14:00.004+08:00

i need a holiday,
but i can't.

i need it badly now.

its either to the beach, or in your heart .

i can't .. for both

love

2010-02-08T02:53:00.001+08:00

i wanna love you and only you ..

let me love you fully ..

please ..

vain

2010-01-16T18:26:00.003+08:00

"yer ! you wore that same shirt that day!"

Eva Mendes:"Are you that vain to not let people see you wearing the same shirt again?"

seriously, whats wrong?

i should invent disaposable shirts for these people

uh oh ....

2010-01-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

i forgot how you look like!

impatient

2010-01-08T13:03:00.005+08:00

its starting ..

time is slowing down

its like counting my period days till it ends ..

END LAHH !! :(

temporarily unavailable

2010-01-05T03:46:00.007+08:00

i'm starting to miss you already

i know i said i won't
who ask you go upset me

but time flies
hate it but i want it right now

uncertain

2010-01-04T00:23:00.004+08:00

i'm getting frustrated..

would this be a good thing ?

i do hope so

brand new year

2010-01-01T01:43:00.004+08:00

new year ..............

well its not that happy for me but happy
i hate it when time flies :(
but also love it when i can start things over

well things come and go right ?
i have to deal with it anyway

my 2009?

nothing much actually ..

started college

meet lots of lots of new people

failed chemistry >.<

gotten out of a relationship

reunited with a not so new friend

staying in malaysia for another year

2010 better be a good one!

weird picture i took
somehow find it interesting because of the firework

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!

SOULed OUT

2009-12-28T22:28:00.005+08:00

got my streamyx going!
thank you .. thanks for clapping =D!

my silly parents brought me to Souled Out, Mont Kiara for dinner yesterday

TO ARTHUR ! =P

my mom's cuppocino, RM 7

my fruit punch, RM10

my parents' sang har mee, RM god knows

my sirloin steak, size slightly bigger than my freaking palm, RM40 wtfdjfgioshfisjef -______-

total was like RM97.75
dad gave RM98 and "keep the change"

now u know why i call my parents silly -___________-

fucked up

2009-12-28T16:28:00.002+08:00

what the hell is wrong ?
i can't bloody upload my pictures to blog
waited for more than an hour for 5 pictures to be uploaded
each picture less than 300kb

screw digi broadband
screw my day

=(

2009-12-09T04:19:00.003+08:00

4.19 in the morning on 9.12.09
i'm upset =/

why aren't i sleeping ..

so emo

its christmas time

2009-12-08T02:54:00.003+08:00

pavilion =D

merry christmas!

gosh i love christmas ..
presents please? :P

hey you!

2009-11-30T02:28:00.004+08:00

i'm the mushroom.
you're the fairy.
i'll cover you from bright sunshine and heavy rainfalls.
i'll protect you until i die.
don't leave me.
i'm not going anywhere either.
you're just so magical :).

it lagged at the right time..
look at that smile .. awww .. xD

spot my new baby!

since i have adobe skills now .. i should design my own blog page ..
hmm .....

i can't stay away

2009-10-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

the maximum i can stay away from you is a week
but just days i'll be already feeling disappointed
i know its not a "mature" thing to do
i know i should be "independent"
anyone who knows me well knows that i have death phobia or thantophobia
i wan to spend every moment i can with you because i don't wanna regret
i never want to regret not spending enough time because time flies
i can't stay away from you
5 years away is gonna be hard .. real hard ..
harder for me than for you
hey. i love you. i don't ever want to regret loving you and not loving you fully

Baby baby I love you
Baby baby I'm here for you

I don't know why
Why i love you so much
What went through my mind
And i don't know why
Why i want to kiss you
Guess that I was blind

Baby how i wish you could be here with me
Just one more time, baby...

And I swear
I'll be there
Everytime you want me to
I'll be true
Here for you
Don't leave me lonely
Cause I need you

Guess I am in love
I can see our future grow
Don't ask me how i know
Cause I'm loving you
And I know you can feel
All the love I gave

Baby
Living without you
Will tear me apart
When i know how it could have been
But I don't care what it leads to
Lets make a new start
And give love a chance to win
Cause baby I swear

27th October 2009. Thanks, love.

24th of October 2009

2009-10-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

愛錯

cockroach

hon

everything is so wrong la

u stupid .. u dam stupid lo !

hope you're right

24th of October 2009

changes

2009-10-23T23:18:00.002+08:00

i used to love changes in my life
normally when it happens, its good

now im feeling insecure with changes
im slacking in my studies
im confused towards my love life

changes .. i take risks ..
but is it worth to be taken ?
i don't wan to be broken again
took me a really long time to patch myself back up

changes .. i'm scared of making the wrong decision
i am really really scared ..

nikon D5000 .. i waan >.

things

2009-10-07T23:26:00.005+08:00

i want
- my few months old phone to be repaired
- a dslr cam
- a (few) trip(s) to the beach or somewhere cold
- a better (sports) car
- to have the motivation to study
- to be able to do what guys can do, not think of anything, blank out mind
- something to distract me from crappy stuffs

i wan't to be happy.

i don't want
- to retake my pre-u
- to repeat all the sad moments i had
- death to exist in this world
- to be fat

i don't want to cry.

i'm unsure of
- going to nz
- whether i like to be one of the boys
- whether i should take this risk

i'm unsure of myself and what i want

i think that
- karma exists
- guys will always be guys
- percentage for a guy to change for a girl is 1%
- guys should stop insulting girls (driving, mentality, etc)

i think that guys can't live without girls, and girls can't live without guys

i'm glad about what i have,
i appreciate people around me alot.
but i'm not satisfied.

i need more

come back ?

2009-09-25T20:13:00.007+08:00

its been awhile since i posted anything ..
this blog is practically dead

happy birthday sineyee dear

happy birthday mccaine and bye vicky

i love you

might or might not miss you ? =p

and they ask me why i wanna be a dentist

things changed, my life is changing.
obviously insecure. i'll stay strong =)

you taught me to stand up for myself

2009-07-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

you taught me to stand up for myself

I've been loving you for so long
i forgave you for all the mistake you've done
you always beg for last chance and i had given many
when will it ever end ?
you taught me to stand up for myself in my previous relationship
so i chose to give up my love for him so that i can be happy
i thought you would be different
yes you are, i know you love me more
but i still had to give you many last chances
just like i did before
you took the trust for you away from me
you took the love for you away from me
and yet you don't take it seriously
like i'm joking when i say i'm leaving you
you taught me to stand up for myself
so i'm doing that now
you stopped begging
instead you went out and spend time with your friends
having a good time
while i'm at home crying
you just kept saying you don't know what to say
and left it that way
you once told me girls are stupid
yes they are
because they still love their guy no matter what they do
no matter how much they suffer
thats why girls are stupid
stupidity brings pain
and yet she stays
you taught me to stand up for myself
so i'm really calling it off right now
i always thought you were the one
the perfect guy for me
you had to prove me wrong
and take all of these as a joke
ignore it and say nothing about it
i wanted to give up my whole future for you
yes of course i'm stupid
but i hope you could see how much i loved you
how much i wanted you
how much i suffer when you're stupid
how much i want you to realize this is not a joke

you taught me to stand up for myself
and yet i'm crying
all by myself
you're still having fun
there's no way i can be strong
because i'm used to being with you
i know i have to be
strong but weak inside

you taught me to stand up for myself

thank you, love.

you're not sorry

2009-07-06T19:39:00.002+08:00

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I’ve been giving out chances every time and all you do is let me down
And its taking me this long but baby I figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around

You don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no more, no more, no

Lookin’ so innocent
I might believe you if I didn’t know
Could’a loved you all my life
If you hadn’t left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I’m tired of being last to know
And now you’re asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before

But you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don’t want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I don’t believe you baby like I did before
You’re not sorry no no no noo
You’re not sorry no no no noo

You had me calling for you honey
And it never would’ve gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade

So you don’t have to call anymore
I won’t pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There’s nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you’re sorry
But I won’t believe you baby like I did before

you're not sorry by taylor swift

you broke my heart
you took my love for you away
i love you deeply
but it has faded
i need you in my life
so please don't let this love disappear

night out

2009-07-04T01:31:00.004+08:00

girl A : girl C is going for abortion
girl B : what ?! seriously ? oh my god...
girl A : guess who's the baby's father?
girl B : who?
girl A : her father !
girl B : oh my god ! seriously ?!
girl A : ya ..
girl B : gosh . i use to date her father when i was 15

its not the actual conversation but its like this
and somewhere in the conversation they mention girl C is pregnant for 7 months already

its true .. what a screwed up family she has .. and screwed up friends ..
poor thing ..

anyway .. i was at ttdi celebrating wengkit's bday when i ease dropped
i mean i didn't mean to !
they were talking to each other so loudly in the toilet
babe and me were so stun .. lol

so yea back to celebrating wengkit's birthday
we ate manhattan fish market in cineleisure den head to ttdi
a pub in ttdi which i dun remember the name .. lol

i cant say much .
im totally tired and i drove without license and ic
xD !
anyway .. i need to rest since i need to complete some community service tomorrow morning -,-
waking up at 6 ..

logging off with some stupid incident caught on tape
i rotated the video and there seems to be side effects
the videos are playing faster than they should be
video 1 : 4 dumb dumbs . thomas , wengkit , josiah and last but not least , my babe yong kai vern
video 2 : i dunno whats this thingy called , weng kit drank somethingy from the cup with fire blabla

friday morning

2009-07-03T14:01:00.003+08:00

my morning went like this
i was suppose to go babe's hse early in the morning at 8
i didnt sleep the whole night because i was afraid i wont be able to wake up
i packed my stuffs and got into my car
there was when i start spamming calls
i cant get through his phone at all
he's usually the easy waking up type
so i kept calling ................ *engages*
i sms-ed/called almost everyone i'm close with in mayang
jo, engeu, raymond, mccaine ...
engeu played a fool -,- *thanks*
mccaine and raymond deep asleep
jo helped me call babe but still couldn't get through
we even called his hse , nobody picked up
9.30am, i asked jo to call his maid to let me in his house
i was soooo dam sleepy that time
so i went his house , slept till 12.30pm
babe is having test at 2pm
and i was suppose to wake raymond at 10.30am
darn! lols
i continued to call babe and every call failed
so i called raymond
he helped me call him too
i drove to babe's place
parked behind his car and kept calling
raymond helped me call babe's cousin who stays next door but she didnt pick up
still in school perhaps
suddenly babe call me while i was talking to raymond over the phone
apparently his maid recognize my car and woke babe
what a way to start my morning right ?
lol ..
im so friggin tired right now and im in college waiting for babe's exam to finish

this is practically how i look like right now

going dinner in curve tonight to celebrate wengkit's birthday
but still unsure if we wanna go TTDI for boozes or babe's friend's place after that
all i know is i wanna sleep right here, right now, in this library

oh did i mention i was one second late and now all plug points are occupied ..?
dam this morning -,-

my little family

2009-07-03T06:17:00.003+08:00

cupido , pinkie and cupiecake
my little family im so in love with

this is not matured for some of you ..
im appreciating being a child while i can
gosh i love you yong kai vern!

all over again

2009-07-03T02:03:00.004+08:00

i'm officially legal
i'm an adult
i should be mature
therefore i'm starting over this blog

no more bitching
no more backstabbing
well maybe sometimes when someone pisses me off
just my feelings
=)

i made up with the girl i always bitch about
i made up with everyone i had conflict with
guys, i still love you

*shake shake*